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I've been losing weight these days. Food doesn't taste. The sleep is short. Life under pressure is such a depressing thing that you will never want it to last. It's like there is a cloud hanging over on your mind. It's like a low battery sign that is never gonna disappear. It's bothering you forever. All you can do is just to put up with it. Bearing in the harsh winter, waiting for the spring......or at least the end of winter.
Mindset is so much alike to the chart of stock price. It goes up and down, continuously but leaping. Everything seems to be fine untill one moment, you feel good about yourself. But all of sudden crash begins, and you've got to be beaten by a single electronic message. Confidence gone. What a hell....
Talking with friends is a kind of leisure.
When you look back, you'll find a lot of things that should be done, so many faults to be corrected so long ago. But at the sametime you also doubt if those things are really of help after all. After all.....wouldn't all strife turn out to be vain? "Try is beginning of failure", said Homer J. Simpson. I think it's not wrong in any meanings.
Sometimes I wonder whether what I'm struggling for is even worthwhile or not. Since you know, if everybody is digging the gold mine, there'll will be no gold. Going the same way with other people only leads you to the same results. Do you want that? No, but otherwise what can you do? Find a gold mine yourself? Nothing is more impossible than that.
After all the peace of mind might come with one sentence, "Aim low, never try." That's Sarcastic enough for my life. ha-ha
- 2006/01/22(日) 00:24:51|